I have just had a massive panic attack!
EB is normally home before 4:00pm. Everyday, rain or shine, he's always
home before 4:00. Not today. No he just got home now (4:50pm).
I had to call his school and find out if he had to stay late, but no.
There wasn't anyone in the classroom.
The secretary went out into the playground and found him, she made him call home
and leave a message (because I was so panicked at this point I had packed up LB
and Dot and were walking the area searching for him) and he came home then.
He'd been playing soccer in the playground and lost track of time. I told
him if he wants to play soccer all he has to do is go to the office and call
home. Or he can come home, grab his bike and go back to play.
The kids he was playing with all belong to the daycare at the school, except for
one. And I had tried to call his house but there was no answer. I
don't know if his Nanny knew where he was or not, but considering he has a much
younger sister in the school I'm assuming that she saw him and he got permission
to hang out and play at the school.
How the hell am I going to make him see
what this does to me. The thoughts and fears that stream through my head
as I stand on the street corner, searching for some sign of him coming home.
Am I just being over paranoid? Am I over reacting when I sit there
thinking that he might have been hit by a car, kidnapped or any number of just
as terrifying things that could have happened to him on his way home.
Do I need to take a chill pill? Do I need to sit back and relax a bit
before I blow a gasket?
I don't think so. He is home everyday by the same time. This is
the first time he's ever done this. If this was normal behavior for him
then I'd be saying take it easy, he's probably just playing somewhere. But
this is the first time, and one of the first thoughts that ran through my head
is that the Psycho Mom
got a hold of him and thrown him into traffic or something just as deranged.
I just realized how much I hate that bitch. I've always laughed when I saw
her and made fun of her bass-akward ways. I've mocked her and belittled
her. But until that thought that she got to my son hit my brain I didn't
realize how much I truly hate her.
It's times like these that you wish Karma would jump up and bite her right in
her large, white trash ass! That bitch!
During the weekend Hubby called me a Grizzly Bear. He said to me that God
help the person that ever makes me fear for my children. Well that Bitch
has done that. And my first instinct is to hunt the bitch down with a two
by four in my hand and jump her from behind, slamming that slab of wood into her
head until it's the consistency of an extremely runny pudding.
Like I said that's my first instinct. But I'm not going to give into it.
I'm not that person. I'm giving that bitch a wide berth, staying away from
her.
I better, because the way I feel right now, if she even looks at me funny I'll
want to mash my fist into her face, repeatedly.
[inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale. Breath. Breath. Breath]
All the fear and anxiety that I felt about EB's being missing is coming out
in anger against that Psycho Bitch. It's not healthy and I need to just
calm the hell down.
I have to go out to a meeting with the Social Committee tonight, and be
in the same room with folks that are actually friends of hers. So I better
get my emotions under control before I end up embarrassing myself and perhaps
being kicked out of the committee.
I guess one way of looking at this whole thing with EB today is that it's an
enormous Karmic pay back for playing that
nasty trick on him in
Little Caesar's parking lot.
I guess the Chickens have come home to roost!
5:09 p.m. - October 05, 2005
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