I slept through the night. I did not wake up half way through, I was
not plagued with snoring or dogs attempting to shove me out of the bed. I
slept all night long.
So tell me why it is that I'm feeling so exhausted? Why do I feel like
crawling into bed and sleeping for the rest of the day?
I remember back to when I was working nights, and even for a while after, when I
was hurt. I remember how I felt back then, how I would get LB onto the bus
and then crawl back into bed until it was time to take the kids to school.
I can't believe that these same kids that I have to yell and force to get ready
to leave for school in the morning are the same ones that while I was crashing
out in the bed made sure they got everything done, watched the clock and made
sure I was up again in time to get them to school.
I really was in a bad place then, I can see that now.
Sometimes I think that I'm falling back into that pattern. That terrifies
me. I do not want to become that person again.
On a happier note, LB is at school. Dot is going to be leaving for
school at any minute. Yay.
It does look like EB will be home again today... Boo!
Oh well, not much that can be done about that, huh?
More good news, Dot is getting a bed frame this week. Right now she has
her mattress (2 of them) sitting on the floor. She hasn't had a bed frame
since we moved in here and left her old one behind. I do not know why we left
that one behind, well I do actually. The Queen bought it years and
years ago, she gave it to us after my father in law passed away and we moved in
with her. It wasn't super fantastic or anything, but it did pretty well.
It was a cheap metal day bed.
When we moved out the Queen told us to leave it because she needed it.
So that's what we did. Imagine our surprise to see her tossing it out on
the curb for garbage. Bitch.
She couldn't give it to her grand daughter, no. She had to have it back so
that the trash man could take it away.
The last time she came by here she was talking to Hubby about giving us her
stupid ultramatic bed. She's got it in her head that it would be a good
thing for us to have.
Even better, Hubby was entertaining the idea. Until after the Queen
left and I hit him over the head with a reality club.
First things first, she's had that bed for over a decade now. She's
been sitting in it puffing away on her cigarettes. She had so much
nicotine in her room from smoking that after she moved out I couldn't clean the
crap from her walls. I scrubbed it with every known product to man, I had
to primer the walls 3 times to get rid of the stains. And that bed was
sitting in that room for all that time, imagine the state it must be in?
Second, the thing is super heavy and not easy to move. Who was going to be
lugging it out of her home and into ours. Who was going to carrying that
thing up to the second floor. I can tell you that none of our friends
would be looking forward to helping out with that one. They moved it once
when the Queen moved the first time. They said then and there that
if she needed help moving again to call professional movers because they weren't
going to lug that thing around again!
And Lastly, who knows if the stupid thing is still working? I mean this
woman can't sit up in her own bed after lying down for any period of time.
That was the whole reason that my father in law bought the bed for her. So
why would she part with it?
And besides all that, I don't want to be taking handouts from that damn woman any more. She tries to hold them over your head, like you can't live without her or something. She is just a bitch, plain and simple and because of that I really don't want a thing from her. I'd have to be dying or desperate to feed my kids or something before I'd let that woman think she was God rushing in to save me! Screw her.
8:45 a.m. - February 07, 2006
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