Why am I up? Why have I been up since 2:45am?
Bad dreams = lack of sleep, that's why.
And I can't even tell you what the stupid dream was about. Only that I woke up with my heart racing, raspy breathing and I was wide awake. Yup, not that sort of sleepy drowsy way you feel when you wake up nice and slow. I felt not only that I was wide awake but that I could take off and run a nice little marathon right at that moment.
Well maybe not a marathon, I am more than a bit out of shape. Perhaps sprinted for as long as my pudgy little legs would carry me would be a better description?
So what have I been doing since 2:45?
Well last night after I got LB to bed I didn't do much of anything. I'd had a particually not fun time with him and I didn't do my dinner dishes or tidy up after we ate. Not at all.
So I woke up, lay in bed for a bit, tossing and turning. Trying to go to sleep. But it was no use. I was wide awake and couldn't do a thing about it.
I climbed down my stairs, put the kettle on for a tea and sat down on my sofa. I was planning on turning on the TV and zoning out for a little while. But I decided that wasn't a good plan. I'm up, there's some work to be done, why not get it finished now?
So I got my chunky little bottom up of the very comfortable sofa and rolled my sleeves up (metaphoricaly speaking, since my pj's don't actually have long sleeves, but you get the point right?) and began to scrub my dinner dishes. I've also swept and did a quick mop on my kitchen floor. Yay for productivity in the early morning hours.
What this means is that with LB home today, I will have more time to sit with him and feel like a zombie, wanting a nap so very desperately. Yay me!
No, I'm just kidding. At some point I will be able to lie down and get a bit of rest. At least I'm pretty sure.
So, interested in why I had a bad day with LB?
Well he wanted to be on the floor, he wanted to roll around on his mat for a bit. So I let him. I was in the kitchen making the burgers for dinner when I heard a coughing sound. I looked up and saw Dot sitting on the sofa and thought it must have been her, because she makes those coughing sounds all the time.
Then I heard it again, and I was looking right at Dot so I knew it wasn't her. And this time I noticed that it sort of had this strange gagging sort of noise to it at the end.
I hurried into the front room and saw LB lying on his back, vomit covering his entire face, pooling under his head and he was actually choking on it.
I flew over to him and grabbed him as I sat down on the floor, calling for the Hubby at the same time. I lay LB across my lap, on his belly so that everything that he could empty his mouth, I also tipped him a bit upside down, to clear his airways for him.
My heart was pounding, it was beating so fast in my chest I thought it was going to explode. Hubby rushed over with a wet cloth and a towel. We cleaned up LB as best we could and Hubby took him upstairs to give him a very badly needed bath while I cleaned up.
After that I've been a bundle of raw nerves. I haven't let LB out of my sight. I haven't allowed him to lie on the ground. He's been a position so that if he pukes again he wont choke on it.
I'm not even comfortable with him being in bed. What if it happens again while he's asleep? What if it happens while I'm asleep and don't hear him gagging on it?
I'm in a very bad space right now with him, perhaps that's what my bad dream was about? Something related to LB's situation today?
I don't know, all I know is that I'm just so paranoid and fearful now.
He didn't cry or make any other noise other than that coughing, gagging sound that really didn't sound all that terrible. There wasn't any way you would have put life threatening situation together with that noise. No way.
4:51 a.m. - January 23, 2006
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